indifference
indifference is scarier than hatred. and there are certain things, people and situations that i have grown completely indifferent to. and this feeling or the lack thereof is pretty scary. but i don’t know how to start caring about things that i no longer care to care about anymore.
fall time?
why does fall time sound so weird when spring time summer time winter time sound so natural? anyways, the weather is cooling down, it’s starting to feel like fall and i can finally bust out my coats, jackets, sweaters, scarves and boots 
junior year: classes are alright, welcome night went smoothly, football games are always fun, high school friends came, urban is having a lot of sales, freshman lock-in was a blessing, i love my small group girls. so far so good. except i’m broke phi broke and my first wave of midterms is starting next week. haaaaa.
recently, God has really been challenging me and breaking me down with so many different kinds of emotions (good and bad). i’m not really sure how my feelings relate to my faith as a Christian, but i do have a tendency to think/speak/act on my emotions, and i know that they sometimes mislead and negatively reflect my thoughts, my words and my actions. but at the same time, He really is showing me how to cope with these struggles and giving me a stronger heart. i’m slowly and finally learning the power of His Word and prayer. wow 
haha i just thought of a random story:
when i went back home at the end of summer, i found out that we have a hamster now. my brother got it from his ex girlfriend (or girlfriend.. i don’t know anymore lol). so one day, my mom heard this squeaking noise from downstairs and got really worried and scared because she thought the hamster was crying. so she called my brother to come home immediately because the hamster is in pain, but when my brother rushed home, they found out that it was just the sound of hamster wheel turning. hahahah oh silly mom.
cute huh
summa timeeeee
i just conquered a 15-page term paper.
i win! you nasty paper.
3 hours of sleep,
red bull,
coffee,
14-point punctuations
and wake-up calls FTW
TGIF!
today i woke up an hour before work (which is REALLY early for me because i usually get up 15 minutes before class/work, panic a little and walk so fast that i am panting and sweating by the time i get to wherever i need to be). BUT TODAY i woke up, took a shower, even ate breakfast and just chilled with hayeon. and i mindlessly got out of my apartment at 10:20 (already 20 minutes late) and just slowly strolled to work with my iPod on, admiring the beautiful weather as if i got all the time in the world..
so i got to work at 10:30 and casually walked in to start my assignments. i thought i would get away with being late, but my boss walked into my room as soon as she heard me come in. and then she started to lecture me about professionalism and punctuality in such a nice, professional way that made me want to never be late ever again.
and then she started looking super concerned and worried and started asking me if everything was okay with me. i called in sick earlier this week because i didn’t feel like going to work, so she asked if i had some health issues that she should know about, or if i was too stressed, or if i was going through some kind of crisis. in my head i was like “geez woman i am perfectly fine don’t trip.” i almost blurted out that i was going through a quarter-life crisis or a tough break-up because i couldn’t tell her that i was just feeling extra carefree today morning. haha oh dear.
anyways. today’s 6-hour shift consisted of:
- 2 cups of coffee
- 2 water bottles
- 4 hours of starvation
- 5 bathroom runs
- 6 hours of 1 song on repeat
and endless internet browsing! and look what i came across:
ROMANCE MATHEMATICS
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy
OFFICE ARITHMETIC
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime
SHOPPING MATH
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for items that she doesn’t need.
GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.
PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn’t.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won’t change, and she does.
haha brilliant!
you can’t dance and stay uptight :]
okaaaaaaaay
my life is really boring and i do the same things everyday and unfortunately i am not in korea either
and i am not intelligent enough to write meaningful and thought-provoking entries
but HERE I GO~ i am going to try this again and keep up a blog~
i remember when i used to have a xanga and tYpE lyK diS aNd thOt ii wAz sO kYoOtE! hahaha!!!
OHH! i actually do have something funny/sad that happened today to share. so i was sitting in my daily 2-hour math lecture.. the 2 hours usually go by pretty quickly cuz i just facebook/email/chat on my itouch and/or just stare at my white gsi’s afro and listen to his monotone lisp (kinda cute xD) and take a 10-min nap every break. anyways today, 45 minutes into the class, he stops in the middle of writing a problem on the board, turns around saying that he’ll just finish the rest tomorrow because he doesn’t feel good.. and he just grabbed his stuff and left the room. everyone was soo confused hahah well my initial response was pure joy but now that i think about it, he must REALLY have been in pain if he just had to leave like that (he had a poisonous spider bite the other day..) poor guy 
and i was also really sad because i stayed up til 3 in the morning finishing the homework that i didn’t even have to turn in.
which got me to think about how happiness and sadness is like an exchange (too much econ ugh). one person’s happiness transfers to another person’s sadness. my entire math class got to leave early while my gsi suffered an inexplicable pain. and like today hayeon got her wallet stolen by a ggaman lady. the lady found a jackpot (regardless of the immorality) at hayeon’s expense. and even though i’m so happy the sun is so hot and bright these days, it really sucks for the construction workers. soo maybe if you add up all the happiness and sadness in the world (you technically can’t.. but still), the world turns out to be a neutral place that can never be fully happy…. hmm i can ramble forever so i should stop
so i’ll end with a quote that i really like from grey’s, cuz i don’t know how else to end it besides “THE END”
“At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.”
